Here it goes

So, I have been keeping a little pregnancy journal on my computer just to vent. Now it will go up for the world to see if they find me. Here is the background. I have PCOS. I knew this a long time ago, but doctors make you "try" for a year before they will suspect something is amiss. So we did. finally a year goes by and I get a referral to the fertility team with Kaiser Permanente. We go to their seminar to see what the ins and outs are of the process. First, he must be teated becasue his possible problems are easier to fix. Well, he smokes and they will not do a semen analysis until he is tobacco free for 3 month. That shut it down right there and I waited for him to quit and he just couldn't. So we move to Arizona, where insurance covers nothing to do with infertility. So, with it out of our pocket there are no hoops to jump through. I get a referral and go to a reproductive endochrinologist about 9 months after moving here--the best I've been told in our town. There are only 2. Anyway, he puts me on metformin and tells me to lose weight. So I do that, and nothing really come of it except that I've lost 30 pounds, so that is good. Fianlly I press him to take it to the next level. I have an HSG test. I start taking Letrizole for 5 days of my cycle and I get mature follicles. I get a shot in my stomache and we have sex like crazy for 44 hours. We do this for 2 cycles with no pregnancy, then we decide OK, IUI. Take it to the next level. Well, that month I get small follicles, he checks a few days later and they have shruck--bad news, too much insulin in my system. Time to get aggressive. I am put on 42 daysin birth control pills to increase my estrogen levels and drop the androgen levels. This send my body into a strange and gross cycle. I vow never to take birth control again. In the mean time I decide I need some alternative medicine, so I start to see a fantastic acupunturist. She is great--getting things alligned, hormones under control and she is a great listener. She helps me get my cycles under control and hormones balances with the acupuncture and some herbal supplements. I feel so much better. Then my grandfather dies and we decide to take a break from it all. It is all very stressful. 2008 brought a new desire to get that baby in my belly, so we have gone through one cycle with IUI without success. Friday will bring attempt #2 with two follicles ready to pop. I get a shot in the stomach tonight and Friday morning the proceedure happens. If you have read this, cross you fingers