Or Not . . .

I just don't know. Three losses in the last year and maybe I have not properly grieved and maybe I am still holding a lot of hurt and anger for my situation. I just can't take it when people give me advice of any kind about getting pregnant. I want to say "shut up, you have no idea what I have been through." I don't want any sympathy. I don't want to talk about it and yet I do want to talk about it. I want to talk with others who really understand the heartache and I can do that online and I can talk to my acupuncturist. I am thinking of joining an infertility support group. I am thinking of individual counseling. Justin does not want to deal with issues but would rather stuff them--hold onto them in my opinion. I think I am holding on and I want to let it go. I need to be freed from this pain. So how do I do that? I don't know yet, but I have a counseling appointment tomorrow afternoon.